i know that your in love with her by the way you never touch her, or look at her

Photography has become my white whale.
i need it, i feel it, but i just can't do it(right now it's because i lent out my digi-body to matt or at least that's my excuse)
i know i can do it, i know i'm good(well i used to be) so now i just don't have the same drive to do it.

i think it's my hamartia.

once i can do something, i get bored.

i wish i was one of those gloriously few people who find what they're good at AND stick with it AND are smart about it so they find a way to keep doing it.

oh well
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now if you have a problem what do you do about it?
take it on, head first?
dive into to?
fix it up right away?
really?

liar.

i had that conversation(in my head)yesterday when i read the first question up at upei and i think that really sums me up

time for today's list!

"things i need to do that i've avoided like the plague!"
-finish my resume
-apply for jobs
-ask old emplyers for letters of recommendation so i can go to school in jan.
-wake up at a reasonable hour
-buy safe-t-salt for back steps(it's a fucking them ride back there,"ice caverns"or something just as hokey)
-get body back from matt
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LOVE IT.